What is the prize, what is the prize
Look at that bewildered look in their eyes
Oh but look, look at how the time flies
I should have listened to the words of the wise
We’re off to the races but going where?
I think I’m finally losing my hair
Why the stare, why the stare
Don’t you like my new underwear
Oh wait, wait now Im starting to see
The laughter, that smile is what I seek in me
Stop the race! I’m going back
Time, time come back to me!
I’m starting to see what sets me free
Move,move,out of my way!
All this work and no time to play
I know, I know it’s no time to weep
But soon I know that I’ll be asleep
Slipping into different characters, each with their own tonality and ways of expression. It’s an outlet to explore.
I didn’t expect to see what I had found as I turned the corner into a dark long alley.
The attack had begun. I stared in shock. They were feeding.
My eyes darted in the other direction as I noticed my heart pounding hard as if it were trying to come out of my chest.
Just then, time slowed down. A beautiful woman walking with such grace grabbed my attention.
She was tall and slender, wearing a long fur coat that went to her knees, with very chique sunglasses, walking casually without a care in the world with her
heels tapping the hard concrete with softness. Tap, tap, tap.
My mesmerization was suddenly jolted by a groan. I turned back, as my heart began to race.
Nothing! It was empty. “where did they go?!” I remember thinking.
I woke up suddenly. It really was nothing.
I opened my closet door with my eyes half-opened, becoming assured that this was only a dream.
The End. Literally.
Trust the process and the rest will follow.
I’ve considered myself to be a lifelong learner, always enjoying the classroom experience while discussing different ideas in college.
This was a different kind of education though – self-education, would be fitting.
I’d been a beginner at many things in my life including many new jobs and short-term ventures that I worked in within different industries,
new settings surrounded by changing faces.
Aviation, hospitality, advertising, education, food and beverage, finance, biotechnology just to name off a few.
As a beginner, I remember the feeling of being new and then as time went on how that all faded.
The company expected more and more, then what was once fun became a daily mundane chore.
Though the positive side was, as all the uncertainty that came with being “the new guy” faded in the background;
more customers came to trust my expertise and level of competence to deliver value to their needs.
The progression to proficiency from a level of beginner resulted in boredom.
That was until I realized that all along that I had been working a job, of course – not a career.
Through a reflection of my experiences, taking a personal inventory of who I am and thirty years later, I realized my career path in social work.
After becoming a proficient professional, I would now be going back to the beginning for additional schooling.
And the timing of it all couldn’t be better! Soaring tuition costs, rising inflation, Betsy Devos (enough said) and now Donald Trump’s tax proposal.
As I zenned out by finishing a meditation session, I thought about what I really wanted to develop a mastery in.
I’d been a beginner, I’d been a professional but never a master at something. Perhaps that title is deceiving since the best masters
are technically always learning. And the ones who aren’t, can they truly call themselves masters?
Maybe only in their heads.
How do you squeeze as much life into a day as possible?
Another day passed when I missed out on commitments that I made that I couldn’t keep.
I thought about all the areas of my life from finances, relationships, health, spirituality, career progression, travel, the list goes on.
The endless number of things to catch up on with new ideas sprawling by the second to lure me in,
the day’s pressing responsibilities that came up minute-to-minute; some that were planned and others unplanned.
“Why am I doing this?” I asked myself silently. I didn’t force the answer, I just left it alone until it came to me.
It was as if I placed an order at a Mcdonald’s where I wanted instant gratification. (Come on man, whose to blame – I’m a millennial after all!)
Only this was something grander, more of on a cosmic level of frequency and so I thought, hey…maybe there’s a block in the transmission like a clogged pipe.
“HELLOOOOOOO Can you hear me?” I thought to myself. Time went on, I looked at my clock on my iphone and still no answer!
I threw my hands up in the air and accidentally hailed a cab. “Hello sir, taxi?” a smiling man with a saintly gaze from the driver’s seat said to me.
I shrugged and entered the vehicle. “Where to sir?” He asked politely.
“To the cosmos” I replied, not knowing whether that was an actual destination.
“No problem sir. You look troubled, what’s wrong my friend?”
“I just had a delay for something I was looking for an answer to”
“Sometimes you don’t have to seek the answer.”
“Yes” I replied while secretly dismissing his response.
As we drove down blocks and stopped at different intersections at the red lights –
all of the foot traffic, bicycles, traffic police, cars and other road hazards had diverted my attention.
Suddenly, in all of that chaos, it’s as if a ray of light came beaming down and just then – I had a moment of epiphany.
The search for equanimity is why.
A couple of days ago, I went to therapy for the first time after being inspired by a book called The Gift of Therapy.
I did it because I wanted to learn about social work first-hand from the perspective of the client
but what I realized was as I was contemplating what I was going to talk about was there were things that were holding back.
And it existed there as a form of dormant energy. And that’s when I realized that this energy can express itself in all kinds of ways.
Have you ever reacted at something or someone yet it had nothing to do with them? All the time, right?
Well, I started thinking about how important it is to express yourself regularly. It’s healthy.
Often times, there are thoughts are floating around in us privately, silently. In our day-to-day lives there are so many different stressors that can cause
distress. These thoughts then which become repressed feelings. And those feelings turn into unpredictable erratic behavior if gone unchecked for long enough.
The benefit of therapy was clear, it was liberating after having expressed those silent thoughts. That dormant energy was being released!
Embracing who we are means to look at ourselves as a whole and to know when to check in, when necessary and sometimes procrastination gets in the way.
It’s when you make that decision to do something to help yourself and commit to it that the healing begins!
That’s what I learned.
After graduating from college in 2013 with a communications degree, I decided
that I wanted to apply theory into practice. So I got a job at a startup company in New York City
in the online advertising industry as a TELEMARKETER.
I hope you didn’t cringe at that word but if you did, I understand.
I want to explain what the experience did for me. I wasn’t a superstar by any means.
In fact, I struggled and was constantly coached yet my results were barely meeting the minimum quota.
So with that being said, I hope that makes you feel more comfortable!
So why do I recommend it? There are intangible benefits to this kind of work that is very helpful in business.
Willpower, work ethic, delayed gratification. Allow me to explain:
When you’re in a slump and everyone around you is doing well, yet you’re not getting any bite.
It can sometimes perpetuate a feeling of you not being enough. And by you persisting,
you minimize that feeling, you forget about and you keep going. At some point, you develop a level of self-confidence
that says I don’t care about the results, I’m just here to do my best and have fun in the process.
After working all day to set a handful appointments at best, we would then have to get into presentations that could sometimes take 45 minutes all the way up to 2 hours leaving you to feel so dehydrated!! Almost as if you were losing your voice. What’s worse is the dreaded response after the closing question, How would you like to pay? “I’ll think about it”
Doing that day after day for about a year and a half until they walked me out the door developed a mindset that can serve you in anything really.
The feeling of success under these circumstances was absolutely exhilarating! But this was the first profession
that really taught me, ironically – that I wasn’t working for the money. I wasn’t doing it for the paycheck.
I was doing it for the skill. I was focusing on my strengths and on my weaknesses. I was introspectively aware of
what worked, what didn’t. I forgot about the paycheck and just capitalized on the moment.
When things weren’t working out, you were forced to figure out what is under your control. I would ask myself,
What can I change?
What can I do differently?
How can I make this work?
These powerful questions force you to dig deep and utilize everything you can, literally to make something work.
And the amazing part was that I found out the hard way that there WAS so much that was under my control.
It taught me how simple it was to make excuses and to rationalize when things weren’t working out, how the mind works in that respect.
These experiences didn’t save me from keeping that job or making a bigger paycheck but what it did is help me to apply
these skills and knowledge to what I do now as a tech support representative. My last month as of December 2017
was my best month at my company metrics-wise. Even when things don’t work out the way you had hoped, there’s always a lesson to be learned that can be more beneficial at a later point for you.
Be Your Awesome Self. The one that knows you are ENOUGH.
Success without fulfillment is the ultimate failure.
Success without fulfillment is the ultimate failure.
Try not to become a man of success, but rather try to become a man of value.
Success is not to be pursued; it is to be attracted by the person you become.
“I think everybody should get rich and famous and do everything they ever dreamed of so they can see that it’s not the answer.”
For it is easy to criticize and break down the spirit of others, but to know yourself takes a lifetime
The successful warrior is the average man, with laser-like focus
Mental strength is not born from privilege, superiority or easy living. It is constructed and projected by the minds of those that have seen the darkest days and survived the toughest nights, yet nevertheless focused on the merit of their inner power and virtue.
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